Captured Life of Us

Even now after all this time Yesterday still lives... Even if I wish it had died away and slept with Yesterday's past it hasn't....

I had the chance to speak to a very good friend of mine (Johan) that spoke to me about something we all like to call codependency.

The Wikipedia (2010) states that Codependency is a tendency to act in a manner so it negatively impact ones relationships. Although I do not have all the characteristics of Codependency I have a majority of these behaviours... One of the Major Characteristics are a disfunctional family....

Not only do I want to be saved by others I also want to save those around me in trouble. This forms a negative relationship that spirals out of control leaving me hurt and feeling rejected. I can Honestly say that being Rejected and Failing at something is the worst emotional trauma for me.....

When taking the journey yet again into the past to help me be a better person today I had to really search my past.....

There was so much t…

Take a hard long look at this picture before you read what I wrote: This is how we look when Bitterness, Anger and Resentment take hold of our life. When we look around us and we see every one else growing and developing, but we find ourselves dead and bit by bit dying away.... Soon we become nothing more than dust and something else for the world to feed on... For the past couple of months Bitterness have come to pay me a visit, trying to convince me that he has been right about so many things in my life... I have realised that soon I will look like this tree if things don't change. I have been so bitter against my Parents for so many reasons and all of them within reason. I have been bitter toward God for giving me these parents and for making me suffer so much... Why can I not have ones that know how to love me.... I wish I can say I finally found the answers, but that that would be a lie. I honestly don't know why so many of us have life so hard. All I know is that I…

Well Hello world so Finally I am also down with the 911 on the Movie twilight. I must say it is shocking how long it took me before I watched this film. To be honest I am not one for unrealistic movies like Sci-Fi and some Horrors. I like the typical love story and drama. But I must be honest and say this movie really left me hungry for more. The second Saga wasn't as good as the first one, but I was only interested in the love that Edward had for his Human girlfriend. I do understand that this Second installment was essential because it tells us the complete story. I can not wait for the third installment coming this Fall/winter. So If you have not seen Twilight: GO TAKE IT OUT......

These words best describe my life...

.....When you fall down: we have to learn how to crawl again and one day we will walk again.... who knows maybe we will even run the race better than the time before.....

Life won't bring me down today.... And I won't worry my life away... Like my friend Andrea always say....

I Had a most inspiring day with Tannie Linda who has been my mentor for many years. We were speaking of so many things and through our conversations I realised things that have been there all along. Nix: Break through has arrived....

Finally want to take the time and Thank the Lord for all the hardship that I have endured in my short time here on earth since that help mold me to be the person I am today. I won't lie by saying that I didn't hate every minute of the hardship, but by looking back at what happened I am now a stronger person with more character....

Nix and Johan you were right we can not take things away from our past they help with the mold.... Photo by:…