Captured Life of Us

What if it all meant something.... or What if it all meant nothing.... I can not see clear.. I am looking for answers in a dark room, unable to find peace... Crying out to God...

I try to understand, but letting go is never easy... I have learnt this: If you have something precious hold onto it as long as possible because with letting go regret has a way to pay a visit too.

To forgive means to let it go... I just couldn't do that for so long and forgiving my father for all he did to me was the hardest things next to death....I did it!!!!

It took three years of telling myself to do so in a mirror every morning.... Now I have to face this challenge yet again... this time it nearly feels impossible , but I know the truth is written in a book we call the Bible. So I write it down on paper every time bitterness and hate comes to pay me a visit.... I know one day it will all be OK again....

Image: Andrew Mitchell Photography. His Photos is Amazing...

A very special Lady taught that you must always tell the truth NO MATTER WHAT....

Take the punch and it is over.... but if you tell a lie you always have to tell another to cover the first....

Have you ever thought why we tell lies. It is to cover or hide something we don't want other to know. Don't lie because the consequences of lying to those you love is always hurt, bitterness and sadness...

Be a person with dignity and stand up for the truth....

In a land far away filled with myth, palaces there is a room hidden deep inside palace gates... The room is called the room of Sorrows. This is where Queen Mary of Modena wept her life away. Upon entering her bedroom I was over powered with sadness myself. Against the wall in front of her bed was table with a hundred small glass bottles. At first I though she might have like perfume. But I was wrong.... Time why did you leave me here alone.... Moments pass...The bottles was used to capture all their tears. Only when the tears have evaporated the morning ended. I always thought that being rich and powerful brought happiness with it automatically, But i should have known better.
I can never forget her... How sad must she have been... I wondered if she had somebody to comfort her. I am lucky enough to have a special family of friends... One must never be that alone that you lose your way....

In a country far far away from the streets of Africa I went to meet my friends and Family.


It's a beautiful place... A place of grandeur, palaces, Kings and Queens and old things around every corner. I loved the United kingdom where there flag is called somthing with a jack....


Five to seven years have passed since I have last saw them and they haven't changed a bit... it still feels like yesterday that we had coffee and walked in the city that never sleeps. It felt good Holding them again like touching your old toys from your childhood, but then it was time to leave and my heart was broken once again... I know it is not good bye but rather till we see you again.


I took another journey to a land close to Pride and Prejudice. There lives a family very near and dear to my heart. When ever I needed them they have been there. My life is filled with wonderful moments I have spend with them a long time ago under African Skies.

I have been blessed to have seen this place they now c…

Standing at the edge of my life in 2010 I see all the things from a far.....

I am 30 years old, divorced, single and feel like my world has been turned upside down.... I see what horrible lies the papers and the media has printed and I can never change it. It makes me sick to my stomage.... how it is even displayed on wikepedia. I mean honestly....

How many times do I have to see this.... how much more should it hurt.... I cry to the Lord and hear nothing, just silence.... Maybe it is my punishment for something I have done to someone.

In a few hours I leave to go to London to see my friends.... Can not wait to see them....

Been taking a wonderful journey called life as we think we know it..... Been quite and i have been listening to what people are shouting over their megaphones called "their lives".... The story of us.... the story of you..... Louie Giglio asked what are you shouting to the world over your megaphone called life.... (and if you don't know him go out and get one DVD). This question of his made me think. No matter who you are and what you believe in you are sending a message into the world. So take a minute and Listen and hear what those around you are saying... Not only by words but also by their actions... What are you saying...? Is it a message of love, anger or just a flat tone of nothingness.... Let us hope it is positive.... Let's hope it is a message of HOPE and LOVE.... don't be nothing .... don't send a message of anger and hate.....BE a person that inspire people and they will inspire you... Open your eyes and open your Heart.... See what others are shout…

DEAR GOD....


I have made my list and kept it close to your word....

I Dream, Wish, Hope and Believe that this wish will come true.... I know I am asking for a man and Not God....

Here I go:


He must be good looking and not arrogantHe must be athletically. (A six pack if possible....)He must not be hairy... i mean no back hair please God...He must be neat on himself...
Be fashion conscious, but not obsessed..
No smoking and no heavy drinking...His eyes must be deep and soft something to get lost in....Look straight and act that way as well... No Queens God....Must want to move to New York and love it as much as me....Must want to travel the world....Must be financiallyindependent... A investment Banker would be good....Must be Humble and give to others...Love his Career...He must be neat and help me with cleaning the house... God I know this is not in there nature.... I mean you created the world in seven days can you please help me find one..... He must be kind to others and me...He must lov…