Captured Life of Us

Walking away can be the hardest thing to do, but it might be the best thing to save yourself from a lot of pain....
When we get to comfortable in our circumstances we can block change that might help us move forward....
Step out and Live, Love and Grow....

The road we call life can be hard and lonely and for the longest time I have been feeling lonely. I have been on this road for many months.... Hoping in vain for something that can never happen... His heart belonged to some one else.... I did not want to see the facts but rather closed my eyes and stayed blind in the darkness....
Nix, Tannie Linda, Carien and Aliza has been sharing there stories of traveling this road. They told me to be scared will keep me in this dark room... I have to stand up and look for this light switch....
The warning signs was there but I just did not want to see it... I guess it is one my flaws: always trying to see the best in every person...
Now it my time to recover and start to live again... Pain, bitterness and anger can cripple you so bad that you feel like you are worth nothing.... WE are not worth nothing because in God's eyes we are priceless....

Dear Mr. God...
I have been wanting to write you for so long. Wanting too tell you I was once lost but now I am found.
Thank you for BLESSING me so much.... Please Bless my Friends and Family....
Day by Day I learn more of you. I love how you fascinate me.... You are like a kaleidoscope: every turn I take I see new facets of you Lord... How can any body not want to Love You....
It's been a long hard road and I can see that you have always carried me when life overwhelmed me. The one set of prints in the sand of time is proof of that.
I love you Long time Lord....
Lots of Love from this Blue spec we call the universe Divan xxxx
P.S Mr. God

This is too my sister Carien.... How will I ever Thank You for what you did.... You brought me to Rivers Church and it truly changed my life.... I am new and restored because you Loved me..... May God Bless you more each day for you helped save my life....

EK SAL NIE BANG WEES NIE....
These words mean I will not be afraid....
What powerful words... In God's Word he promises that he will come fetch us in the deepest darkest places, He will come hold us and bring us back to life....... He will save us because he loves us... He keeps His promises... Ek sal nie bang wees nie.....

Don't be afraid... Have faith friends... Have faith when the storms come.... they will die away and God will be our captain... he will steer us to the calm seas again.... The Darkness will try destroy us.... But... EK SAL NIE BANG WEES NIE.....

Friends there has been a silent Killer in my spirit.... It has been causing me to be an empty shell.... It is a slow killer that eats you up from the inside till its too late....
I have been fighting this killer for the last year and every time I think i have defeated it it comes back. Now Tannie Linda has always reminded me we must act on things... emotions can cause great damage.... "its all d act and a decision and it is harder than you think...." (Linda de Jager)
The Killer I am talking about is Bitterness. Its been eating at my being. I am so tired of fighting it off... Then on Sunday the 10th of July 2011 I went to the message that opened my eyes yet again at how dangerous this emotion can be.... How when it comes back we need to get up and punch it i the stomach so it goes back down....
Pastor Trevor Colemann spoke on Bitterness that Sunday and how to break the chains it has on you... It felt like he was speaking just to me... He said there is 4 causes of Bitternes…