Captured Life of Us

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"Love is patient and kind. 
Love is not jealous or boastful or proud or rude. It does not demand its own way. It is not irritable, and it keeps no record of being wronged. 
It does not rejoice about injustice but rejoices whenever the truth wins out. 
Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance.”
Prophecy and speaking in unknown languages and special knowledge will become useless. 
But love will last forever!”
1 Corinthians 13:4-7 NLT
Thank you God for teaching me the real meaning of these words...

There are days when I wake up at 2 am in the morning looking for reasons to carry on and there are moments when the tears can't be stopped from flowing... I lay awake looking for answers of what could have been... 
 Then I remember that I have broken free... I have become alive ... I have learned how to breath again...
I am quietly reminded that I have become who I really am... I can't go back to who I was in the past.. I am deeper, greater and more alive than I have ever been... I am stronger than ever before... This is whom I suppose to be ... The person you wanted me to be... 
I am Stronger and Free... 
Thank You For loving me and now setting me free... 

At the end of everything is the beginning of something new.. 
Forget what the world tells you because it's all about your own journey... Only you can walk that path... Remember this too shall pass... 
Great advise I got from friends like Natalie Greeff Pinfold and Nicky Siebrits is to lean on God and Friends when you feel like you can't carry on... Don't look for answers you don't know... Learn how to breath once more... 
Forget the world... 
Sometimes we have to fall down a cliff to realize we can only believe... Hold on to Hope that tomorrow brings new beginnings ...
And One day when you least expect it you will forget about the world and you will learn how to breath again....

To all my Family and Friends, 
Today is the first time i felt Human again... I felt i could breath.... Thank You God..
I want to THANK all of you for this... The Love and Support means the world to me... I am Truly Blessed to have each of you in my Life..🌳 I can never express the gift you all gave me... Thank you for lending your ears, listening with your hearts and giving me a shoulder to cry on... 
I realized we are all just Human... We all fall and fail in life... It is how we Learn and Grow... 
All I know is how we get up from that point in our lives is what matter... The harder it is to get up the stronger the victory... 
Never let Bitterness and Anger kill the Love you have... Forgive yourself often...

It's time for some of that blunt honesty I was taught ... My friend Rone said I should write on my blog more so I can see the growth in my steps I take... So here I go...
Faith has been one of my biggest struggles in my life... It's not that I don't believe in the existence of God it is that I don't feel worthy of Him loving me... And I know none of us are worthy of God's Grace and Love...  We are all broken and full of sin.. Remember it is always easier to give advise then to follow it yourself... Right?
For a long time I have wondered why I feel like this... God loves us without condition.. We don't have to do anything to get Him to Love us... He just does... For me that is hard to comprehend as I never had a father that Loved me... Maybe this is why I feel like this... I am not sure yet...
I guess it's all about the journey... To do the Father's Will... 
I try to believe that God wants me broken and bruised... He wants to wipe away our tears... Many a ti…

Being a Blessing to others have become my life's Choice for the rest of 2016... 
May i mean something to others... 
I realize just like me there are many of us that is broken inside... We all are hurting sometimes... Its how we deal with our pain that matter ... 
May my life matter to someone else.... May my story and my journey be an inspiration to people...