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THANK YOU GOD 
I woke up this morning I am ALIVE
I have friends that Love me. I have to support of my family. I live in a beautiful house. I have beautiful healthy kids and a dad that loves them. Thank you for giving me awesome bosses and a amazing job... 
My one motivation in Life is YOU... Thank you for always having my back and Loving me no matter what...

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"Love is patient and kind. 
Love is not jealous or boastful or proud or rude. It does not demand its own way. It is not irritable, and it keeps no record of being wronged. 
It does not rejoice about injustice but rejoices whenever the truth wins out. 
Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance.”
Prophecy and speaking in unknown languages and special knowledge will become useless. 
But love will last forever!”
1 Corinthians 13:4-7 NLT
Thank you God for teaching me the real meaning of these words...

There are days when I wake up at 2 am in the morning looking for reasons to carry on and there are moments when the tears can't be stopped from flowing... I lay awake looking for answers of what could have been... 
 Then I remember that I have broken free... I have become alive ... I have learned how to breath again...
I am quietly reminded that I have become who I really am... I can't go back to who I was in the past.. I am deeper, greater and more alive than I have ever been... I am stronger than ever before... This is whom I suppose to be ... The person you wanted me to be... 
I am Stronger and Free... 
Thank You For loving me and now setting me free... 

At the end of everything is the beginning of something new.. 
Forget what the world tells you because it's all about your own journey... Only you can walk that path... Remember this too shall pass... 
Great advise I got from friends like Natalie Greeff Pinfold and Nicky Siebrits is to lean on God and Friends when you feel like you can't carry on... Don't look for answers you don't know... Learn how to breath once more... 
Forget the world... 
Sometimes we have to fall down a cliff to realize we can only believe... Hold on to Hope that tomorrow brings new beginnings ...
And One day when you least expect it you will forget about the world and you will learn how to breath again....

To all my Family and Friends, 
Today is the first time i felt Human again... I felt i could breath.... Thank You God..
I want to THANK all of you for this... The Love and Support means the world to me... I am Truly Blessed to have each of you in my Life..🌳 I can never express the gift you all gave me... Thank you for lending your ears, listening with your hearts and giving me a shoulder to cry on... 
I realized we are all just Human... We all fall and fail in life... It is how we Learn and Grow... 
All I know is how we get up from that point in our lives is what matter... The harder it is to get up the stronger the victory... 
Never let Bitterness and Anger kill the Love you have... Forgive yourself often...

It's time for some of that blunt honesty I was taught ... My friend Rone said I should write on my blog more so I can see the growth in my steps I take... So here I go...
Faith has been one of my biggest struggles in my life... It's not that I don't believe in the existence of God it is that I don't feel worthy of Him loving me... And I know none of us are worthy of God's Grace and Love...  We are all broken and full of sin.. Remember it is always easier to give advise then to follow it yourself... Right?
For a long time I have wondered why I feel like this... God loves us without condition.. We don't have to do anything to get Him to Love us... He just does... For me that is hard to comprehend as I never had a father that Loved me... Maybe this is why I feel like this... I am not sure yet...
I guess it's all about the journey... To do the Father's Will... 
I try to believe that God wants me broken and bruised... He wants to wipe away our tears... Many a ti…

Being a Blessing to others have become my life's Choice for the rest of 2016... 
May i mean something to others... 
I realize just like me there are many of us that is broken inside... We all are hurting sometimes... Its how we deal with our pain that matter ... 
May my life matter to someone else.... May my story and my journey be an inspiration to people...

Remember when Hope is lost and your Faith is shaking... Remember when you wonder if your going to make it.... 
There is hand stretched out through the deepest doubt..
We can't pretend to see the ending or what's coming up ahead... We don't know the story of tomorrow, but we can stay close to the one who knows...
We can trust our God, He knows what his doing... O' we might hurt right now, but we are not lost or ruined... Might seem like a ocean ... He is with always holding on to us...
I believe there is purpose and there meaning in everything... Must trust in God, he knows what his doing.... 
Don't look back to who you were yesterday... Keep changing for the good of tomorrow... Growth is never easy.. It comes with heart ache and pain...

There are days when i look at you and wonder if anything really matter to you... i realise God should be our corner stone... His will be done... Our corner stone... 
I believe in life defining moments that change who we are... 
What are those moments for you? Do they really matter?

It's true what they say once in a life time we meet someone that changes it all...
His name for me is Pieter Botha... Thought you will never leave, but 10 months and our love story ends in the words "Good Bye cause this is not working for you anymore... " 
But before you go I would like to say the following to you: 
So here's my heart Lord...Seek me Lord...
I know we are both broken inside... Life took a toll on us both.. I speak what my heart has found true... 
I say here is our broken hearts Lord... Help me Speak what is true... Give us life Lord... Here is our lives Lord... I know I can trust you God... You will never leave us at the edge of deaths door...
Amen x
To my Liefie Pieter: 
I don't know if we will ever see each other after today... I now want to give you space like you wanted...  To show you I can do this on my own... Please give me a minute to write you this letter as I can not bare to see you walk away... You said i should be strong... 
You once wrote me w…

Have you ever had a moment in life where you think "if only i can go back and change that, then things will be different " ...  Just take a breath!
Recently thats all that had been consuming me inside.... Days turn into weeks... No matter how hard i worked and tried i can not change the past... What happened, happened!  
Take a moment and breathe...🍃🍃
You see once you find something in life worth fighting for you will do anything to keep it... My "something" is the love of my life Pieter ... 
I met my soulmate 10 months ago and I know that he was sent to me by God... There is irrefutable evidence for me of this.. 
We are so different, but we are so good together... The change we are bringing to each others lives are gaint leaps... he always says "we can get through anything if we just keep communicating... Trust us this is easier said then done... We failed at this many times.... Just keep trying it will happen... Don't give up... Maybe you reading my blog to…

We all fall Down...
The past couple of weeks has been all about learning for me... 
I realised we all Fall Down and fail at life, relationships, being a partner, Husband, Boyfriend, Parent or a Friend to others... 
The Question is are we going to stay down? I decided i will not allow life to kick me down.. i have fallen and stumbled many times in my life and i have not stayed down... Trust me when i say that i have felt defeated... Looked around and though this is the end... 
I was asked this Question recently: 
When in life has growth ever been easy and without pain... The pain is part of the growth process.. It is what we do with it that matters... 
My thought for the day is: 
Don't run away from growth even if it is extremely painful... Once you are through it you will look back and see it was all worth it...

Dear God
Before I lay down to rest, I have one small request. A prayer for the poor and those in need..
I pray you look after those that are weak. Those fighting decease, those who are in times of trouble. I ask for your Grace to pour out over them... I need to believe you hear everyone's cry in their hour of need... I know I have a lot to say... 
I ask for your rest. Your grace is all I need to give me peace. I ask you give this rest to others in need. Those that has fallen, those who are suffering of hunger.. Those children and animals that are unable to defend themselves without you to Guide their way... 
I ask you hold those unable to care for themselves.. Give them a peaceful place to sleep... To believe that you are there looking after us gives me unending peace... 
Hear the hearts that grief.. The wounds that bleed... The tears that fall.. 
Its so much to understand, but I have to believe that you are hear us our Father... We Love you o Father even if we are lost...
Guided us o Fa…

How do we truly know we have found Love & Life? 
Well it is the person that changes you for the better. They make you want to be something better... As humans we have a natural tendency to be selfish... Many of us make life only about ourselves.. No more is this true today than ever before. Technology has contributed a large part to this... 
I am a big believer in the Verse in the bible in Chorintians about Love.  Not one single person on this planet can deny that we all long for Love and the unconditional kind...  Too many people everyday goes to sleep with tears of sorrow... However we must believe that God hears every cry... I pray He hears every prayer... 
My life was filled with lots of pain and I thought I found Life and Love at last... The sad thing is that Life and Love is not found in others only... God gives us Life and Love... He gives us the purest Love of all...  It is unconditional Love... 
Easier said than done right? I lost my way a little the last couple of months. I …

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To My Diesel,
I have been wanting to write you for a while....

There is an deep emptiness in my heart....  Today is Two months since you passed away... I find myself remembering you more often these days.  I wonder how you are... The day you died I asked God to look after you while I am not around... I just cant wait to see you again... 

I want you to remember that I think of and that I love you so very much....  There is a whole in my heart that can't be filled.

Your death brought me to realize so many things.  That's why I decided to dedicate this blog post to you...
Daddy loves you till the end of time...
Me xxxx
Someone ones told me that once you love a pet something magical happen and they are granted a Soul... 
God rest my babies soul till i can hold him again.. 

WOW I LOVE THIS
Choose to love each other even in those moments when you struggle to like each other. Love is a commitment, not a feeling.
Always answer the phone when your husband/wife is calling and when possible, try to keep your phone off when you’re together with your spouse.
Make time together a priority. Budget for a consistent date night. Time is the “currency of relationships” so consistently invest time into your marriage.
Surround yourself with friends who will strengthen your marriage and remove yourself from people who may tempt you to compromise your character.
Make laughter the soundtrack of your relationship. Share moments of joy, and even in the hard times, find reasons to laugh.
In every argument, remember that there won’t be a “winner” and a “loser.” You are partners in everything so you’ll either win together or lose together. Work together to find a solution.
Remember that a strong marriage rarely has two strong people at the same time. It’s usually a husband and wife ta…