Captured Life of Us

Decor Trends that will be BIG in 2017... 
1. Rich tones of Green.  
I have always loved greens, but the intense green against a plain pale background has made me fall inlove with green all over again.  I have posted some examples of Green being used in decor and this should give you some direction how to use it.  


My pesonal favouritre way to use it is with raw wood, rustic elements like wicker Kenian chairs and baskets.  
2. Cork
Yip you are hearing correctly Cork will be making a come back folks... Look how it was used in this corner office.  Simple way to update a space.  Not only is cork a stylish material idea that adds warmth and texture to spaces, it’s also ideal for absorbing noise in our increasingly large, open plan homes.


“It’s used in coffee table bases in combination with stone tops, and as solid cork stool or side table,” Macer says.
Are You ready for this?
3. Quotes on Art work
This will be the this era.  I am sad that this might not be as big as it was in 2016.  I lov…

Whenever you're alone and you say you can't do this anymore.... Remember what i told you today... 
Your life will never be the same... You will find your way... Just breath and know in a moment everything can change... 
If i told you: You are unique... You are one of a Kind... Will you believe me? There is no other way you should be ... Here is how: there are 7.5 billion people in this world and only 5 kinds of finger prints ... No one has the same finger print as you ... That is how unique you are... Your are beautifully made in every way... 
You are beautiful in your own kind of way... Don't change yourself to please others... Be your own kind of beautiful i say... Don't be arrogant, but believe in what you have to offer others... 
Love yourself and you will see others wil find their way too you...

Lost...
Woke up lost ... Wondering where has days gone... Weeks are now becoming months... It has been a Roller Coaster Ride....
Going through the darkest of days ... Look up and wonder where to go from here... I breath again ...I am doing better without you ... My soul is slowly becoming whole again... I haven't given up on myself and learned how to love myself .... I Live Life Loud Again..
Then I remember Time is just a tick tock in the eternal space we call  LIFE... The tick tock of time heals many broken hearts and Souls, and before we know it we all have moved on and have let others Love us again...

What i want to know... 
Today i was reminded that some people are so broken inside that all their eyes tell you are: how much pain they are in... They think they can hide it with small talk and a smile... But deep inside their souls they are aching and they forgot why... I almost forgot "why?"
They assume I am shallow and an idealist cause I believe in the goodness of others and that there is still someone that can complete me... 
As arrogant as it might sound to some i started to Love myself for the first time in my life... I know whom i have become and i look at my life journey and realize how much i have grown... I am a decent human being that can rock your world... The Question is can you handle it? 
Love is a powerful thing... Don't play with it ... It will distroy you... 
I don't care about your money, your past and your titles... What matters is what your soul looks like... Can you stir my soul and can i stir yours? 
It is summer ... All i want to do is lay on a bla…

It has become my life Moto to LIVE LIFE LOUD and leave finger prints on others LiVes...🍃🍃

Stay true to who you are and Believe in yourself... 
Thank you to all those that love me, read my Blog and to those that keep teaching me about myself and this journey called daily life... 
I am so Blessed.. i wake up every day and realize how privileged i am to have this... May my life be an inspiration to you all because without you there i will just be an empty shell...

We all Feel Lost at times and In a moment everything can change... i know i will never be the same again... 


Close your eyes and you will see there is no other way it should be... Being Lost is part of finding your way through life... It's not something we use to do, but Pull through.... you won't feel the same way.... i cry just a little... i feel a little lost ... i look up to ceiling and i see the sun going down and it will be all better now... 
Like any other day I will find my way... 
Thinking of You and then I Breath...

Thankful.. 
There is a deep thankfulness inside my heart today... 
It is impossible to put into words how much it meant for me to have lived with my friends  the past couple of months and to have been loved by others has been my greatest gift in my life... I don't think I would have been well and whole without it... I breath again... Everyday i wake up ok... The battle between my heart and soul is now at peace... 
Today is the first day i will be living on my own... To start a new Journey is scary at times... i think it is because of the unknown it brings with it... But embrace the adventures and be thankful for the small things life brings... 
Change is always one of the most amazing journeys for me because it is so constant ...

All i want to do is turn back time to a time before i met you... Then i realize it will take away from my journey and that i will never take away from myself... But all i wanna do ... is the good old days... 
There is still magic left in every day life... Look at the simple things that make you smile and fall inlove with that... Be inlove with your life everyday are the words that i live for... You live once embrace your journey...
When life gets tougher and you feel like you can't stand it no more... Breath, it won't be long before you look at what you live for... 

Its been a week since I started to breath again...  I still feel whole...  THANK YOU GOD...

I was speaking to my psychologist yesterday and we spoke about my Journey I have been writing down since 2009.  I have seen Thousands of people reading my Blog and how some of my posts have impacted their lives...  All I ever wanted is that my life and my story meant something for some one else...

The growth I have had in my life is all because of the storms and the times of sunshine I experienced... My psychologists always says to me that growth is never without pain.... It is the only way we learn...

Some of us are lucky and have a beautiful life full of happiness, but the majority of us stumble and fall through life till we find our feet.... It's like learning how to walk.... It is important not give up on yourself.... There are times where I felt I could not do this any more... I will lay on the ground waiting for life to pass me by...  Feeling Lost daily.... However I do not want you…

With Freedom come immense Freedom from Pain... Emotional Pain can really kill you inside... It's what I call a silent killer... Easy to hide from the world and others by wearing a mask... I am feeling alright somehow without you .... I realized so much.  I learned even more than I set out to do in 2016... I am so proud of the person I have become and I am ready for my new adventure...  I was able to survive this storm in my life..  I am Stronger, Wiser and more in love with my Life everyday... Important things I learned was: How to Fall in love with my Faith again, How to walk away with dignity, To love without condition, To Forgive and not to be Bitter, How to Love from a Distance, How to enjoy Life again, To be Stronger and not to Settle for less than I am worth, To Love myself without conditions, To absorb all I can from Life and those around me, How to be just ME no matter what, if my AMAZING Friends and family can love me why can't others: (it's called a Choice - Ma…

There is no other place i want to be in my life right now... I am at peace.... 
The sun goes down and a new day is born... i can breath again ... i am starting to feel whole again... I fire away on my new adventure... it's so good for me... 
Thank you God for loving me ... Without you i will loose control... I am blessed to have you... 
Life is lonely road at times... 

I woke up and i could breath again... Today i felt ok... I started to reflect on what happened. I can now look at us with a clearer mind... 
I have asked God all the Questions... His silence is killing me, but He gives me everlasting peace... He will give me the freedom i need... I will understand one day why He took you away from me... Many say there is better to come, but all I beg God for is you... That He protects you, Loves you and Heals you before it's too late... I beg him to remind you who we use to be... 
But I feel like a million miles has come between us.  I have told you i am sorry for what i have done. I am making peace with us not being together anymore. I learned that the pain is part of me. It doesn't have to go away 'cause it reminds me I love you ... That you really loved me... And where in the past you left me and carried on... 
I am glad you are forgetting me... It will help me move on knowing that you are moving on and that you are happy and free... I pra…

There is a battle racing in my soul and in my heart... The battle is real and the cuts are deep...  They battle each other with no mercy... I feel torn in the middle... i have no strength left to cry or carry on... i lay in the dark thinking to myself: "really is this it... What the fuck?" 
I have given it my all and still this was not good enough ... Why are there monsters in the dark holding me back?  When will i feel free ... When will this battle cease to exist  ... 
No more pretending that i can do this.. Cause the truth is that I can't... I have lived a life full of battles, but this one is really killing me inside... No more pretending to the world... I see myself through your eyes and i see the weakness you spoke off... I see the truths you spoke off.. I swear i tried to be better at this thing we call LIFE... 
Another day break and as i open my eyes I realize i am still here... Take a moment to feel real and then the battle kicks off... Another day of bloodshed in …

I crash and i get up... I look up ... 
I am learning to breath again... i am learning to find myself in my new Life... 
I can't pretend that this road i am traveling on is not hard... I look around and all i see is the Love from those that help to pick me up ... I am so Fortunate to have you all as part of my Life... 
I Thank God for all of you... How Blessed am I to have each of You... When i feel like i can't breathe any longer, one of you share precious time with me... Time you will never get back... You are all learning me how to breathe again... 
When I fall one of you help pick me up... You help carry me a step closer to a area of Normal... Maybe I don't say it enough, but I Thank You all... I am lucky to be Loved by you all... 
My journey has never been so full of wisdom and learning.. i absorb each moment and word you all share with me even if sometimes i am silent trust me i am here still listening ... 
Thank You For Loving me ... ❤️ ... 

For me there is nothing worse in the world than to feel lost.  Being lost makes me feel like I am wondering through life with no purpose and I am not moving forward as I am not sure where I am and where I am going...  It's a "Hopeless Place"...

Rihanna and Calvin Harris says it best in there song: "We found Love in a Hopeless Place..."

"It like you are screaming and no one can hear... You almost feel ashamed that someone can be that important that without them you feel like nothing... No one will ever understand how much it hurts... You feel hopeless, like nothing can save you.... and when its over and it is gone you almost wish you can all those bad stuff back so you can have the good...."

I just have to let him go.... I must stop wondering .... My motto in life has become "STOP AND BREATH".  If I don't I will drown in Life's mess and just become another broken wondering Soul.... Lost in a "Hopeless Place"...

I cling only to H…

This is my story.... 
It feels like I am stumbling through darkness with only glimpses of light as i fall down, but in trying to get up i feel like a bucket of icy water hits me in the face.... 
i feel lost and overwhelmed... 
Is this my life journey now? 
The sadness is too much to bare...
Dear Lord, this is my story... i can't carry this burden any more... i can only ask your will be done....
I stumbled on... 

Have ever there been a day that you have felt that music has set your soul free.  Music is such a powerful thing.  A song can bring back a hundred memories in an instant. 



Listen with your heart and soul....

I dedicate this song to us....



Those of us with the broken hearts .....



Me xx

When the moments take control and you feel you can't breathe... When your mind is filled with doubt and sadness ... 
Stop and take a moment and breathe ... 
You get that feeling that you can't carry on and you start to Question yourself... You can't find the understanding for what happened... I tell you don't worry.. You are not alone... You know this Moment will too pass... cling to the positive words... 
Remember that you are alive and still here... There are people who love you... Be grateful in the moment for those that Love you... 
They will stir your soul ...