Captured Life of Us

Reflect on the thoughts of a thousand memories ...

Today Six years ago i got divorced from my husband and we are such different people today... We both found happiness with someone else... 
When looking back i can hardly believe its been that long.. Time slipped by in a blink of an eye... Never thought i would get this far... i was so broken and broused ... Beautiful and bitter, but my soul survived the pain... Deeply carved lines now run over the door of my heart... A reminder that i am still here... I Started loosing Hope... 
Then I met you and I learned how to breath again... I became strong and fought the battles to Love once more... You gave me Hope, but then you left me out in the cold ... i couldn't find a day i didn't feel alone... i felt afraid ... i felt far away from home and didn't know where to go...
But... 
Jesus kept loving me and my heart kept beating till i didn't feel alone no more... I started to breath again... And now All i see today is how i have grown…

Whenever i Wonder if God is real and if He listens to me, I remember that although we can not see the wind we can still feel the wind... it is all around and we can feel it touch our face.... 
So remember God is here although we can not see Him... He is like the wind all around...   Touching our hearts and souls... He carries us when we are weak... He loves us no matter who and what we are... 
He taught me about Love, Life and Hope...

... and when I fall sleep and my mind shoot across the sky to the place where i once felt LOST .. I can see the lost boy looking for me... I feel his heart longing for me in the reflection in the pond... His wondering when he will ever be me.... 
Finding the inner "me" and making peace with myself has been the hardest journey in my life... Being Gay is a hard journey and only those that are gay truly knows what i am talking about...
Now my heart sings to a symphony of beautiful memories ... Life made me feel so lost at times... Wondering if I will ever be enough... Wondering when will my heart and soul ever beat as one... 
It finally does and here is my message to all those still feeling lost: You are not.  You are just on your journey to become an amazing person... Keep going... Be Strong and never Give up...

Words are resounding in my Soul... They are Loud and Clear... They repeat over and over... 


They talk of Forgiveness and about Life being Lived Loud.... Leave finger prints... 
O' I feel so high on life... Where the battle once raged between my Heart and Soul now there is silence and peace... I breath again.... O' I have a feeling my Heart and Soul now beat as one again.... 

Thank You God for Loving me when i was so low and my heart was Heavy... 
Words resounding in my Soul...

4 weeks ago today you first said Hello to me... 
And now Every day I get to know you better and i realize what an amazing person you are... I am so Blessed to know you... Slowly a new story unfold... 
Thank you for sharing my Faith and for making God apart of the 'us'.... I Thank God every day for meeting you.... 
You make me Happy and you are one of the reasons I smile daily... Thank you for being part of my Journey and my Life...
May my life testify to others when words are not enough that it is well with my soul...