Captured Life of Us

Welcome 2017... 
i will call this year my year of reinventing myself.. There are many a day i worry that i am too old to start over, but then i look back in time and find i have done "starting over" many times before... 
I just got lost in the crowd and in the pricess i lost myself a little... 
Now no more waiting, longing and worrying ... 2017 is my year....

Create some Magic in Life...
Sometimes when we loose everything, even ourselves we find a New Beginning and a New Life... 2016 has been one of those years for me, but in loosing myself I learned so much about Life and myself....
There are a couple of things left for me to say before I say Good Bye to 2016: 
Before I start my Thank You’s I wanted to share what I have learned in 2016...  As I am sure for many it was a very Hard and Blessed year at the same time.
 I Learned to Love Unconditional,  To walk away with dignity,  How to Breathe again,  To Laugh again,  To DREAM BIG,  That in a Moment a thousand things can Happen,  To Love myself,  To have Grace for others,  To be Thankful for Life, Love and HOPE,  To cut Negative people out of my life,
* Firstly THANK YOU GOD FOR LOVING me... Without you I would have been so lost.... There are No words to describe what a saving Grace you have been to me in my hours of need ... You Loved me even when I was Broken...
* To Roné Pawson & Ginette A…

Is it really luck or is it destiny that we find the one that moves us on a deep level... 

Reflect on the thoughts of a thousand memories ...

Today Six years ago i got divorced from my husband and we are such different people today... We both found happiness with someone else... 
When looking back i can hardly believe its been that long.. Time slipped by in a blink of an eye... Never thought i would get this far... i was so broken and broused ... Beautiful and bitter, but my soul survived the pain... Deeply carved lines now run over the door of my heart... A reminder that i am still here... I Started loosing Hope... 
Then I met you and I learned how to breath again... I became strong and fought the battles to Love once more... You gave me Hope, but then you left me out in the cold ... i couldn't find a day i didn't feel alone... i felt afraid ... i felt far away from home and didn't know where to go...
But... 
Jesus kept loving me and my heart kept beating till i didn't feel alone no more... I started to breath again... And now All i see today is how i have grown…

Whenever i Wonder if God is real and if He listens to me, I remember that although we can not see the wind we can still feel the wind... it is all around and we can feel it touch our face.... 
So remember God is here although we can not see Him... He is like the wind all around...   Touching our hearts and souls... He carries us when we are weak... He loves us no matter who and what we are... 
He taught me about Love, Life and Hope...

... and when I fall sleep and my mind shoot across the sky to the place where i once felt LOST .. I can see the lost boy looking for me... I feel his heart longing for me in the reflection in the pond... His wondering when he will ever be me.... 
Finding the inner "me" and making peace with myself has been the hardest journey in my life... Being Gay is a hard journey and only those that are gay truly knows what i am talking about...
Now my heart sings to a symphony of beautiful memories ... Life made me feel so lost at times... Wondering if I will ever be enough... Wondering when will my heart and soul ever beat as one... 
It finally does and here is my message to all those still feeling lost: You are not.  You are just on your journey to become an amazing person... Keep going... Be Strong and never Give up...